From the recording Anxious Amor
Lyrics
You pull away... I chase the ghost...
I’m texting you at 2 AM, heart pounding like a kick drum
One reply got me high, silence got me feeling numb
Overanalyzing every word like it’s life or death
You say you’re cool, but I’m spiraling, losing all my breath
Why do I crave you more when you give me less?
Every wall you throw up got me drowning in this mess
Anxious heart, avoidant soul, we’re a fatal crash
I reach out, you fade back, gone in a flash
Push and pull, hot and cold, lost up in the wreckage
I need you close, you need space — this toxic love’s our message!
I got my armor locked tight, don’t need your gravity
Your emotions like a tide trying to swallow me
You want the moon and stars, I’m only giving inches
I back away slow, watch the feelings hit the trenches
You call me cold, I say you’re way too much
We’re speaking different languages, ain’t no common touch
Anxious heart, avoidant soul, we’re a fatal crash
I reach out, you fade back, gone in a flash
Push and pull, hot and cold, screaming in the silence
Love me harder, leave me faster — this is our violence!
I just want you here...
But you breathe easier when I disappear!
I cling — you run!
I bleed — you’re numb!
Broken in perfect symmetry
Two hearts trapped in captivity!
Anxious heart, avoidant soul, burning down the sky
Chasing shadows, telling truths, living in the lie
We destroy what we want most, can’t live, can’t let go
This anxious-avoidant hell is all we know!
Come closer...
Stay away... come closer...